RAF Museum

This morning I set my alarm for 8am but I woke up 9.15am =p I had an appointment with a lady in the RAF (Royal Air Force) museum. I enquired about a voluntary job in the museum weeks ago so she asked me to come in this morning. This museum is huge (like any other museums here)!

The area plan.
The artistic entrance.

Two of the battleships. Two of the crafts outside the museum.

Rocket launcher?!

The lady did a little tour with me and explain the aircraft and all. She talked about Hitler, the Germany+US+Britain war and the kinds of aircraft used to bomb their enemy etc etc. There was alot of information to digest but it was interesting. Now all I can remember is Lancaster, Spitfire, Mosquito, Helicopters, Hawker and Wings in water. LOL! There were so many aircrafts and helicopters there but I didn't manage to get pictures as I was in a hurry to go to the post office to pick up a parcel my mum sent me. I'll try to get some pictures on my next trip =)

Anyway, I went to the post office and I walked there as I thought it was not that far. It's about 30minutes walk with alot of annoying people (construction/roadside workers) going "Helo. Ni hau?"...like wtf?! That's not too bad. The most annoying ones are those that horn you suddenly and shout from their winded down window, "Chiang choung charng!". Those are the ones where I REALLY want to stick my middle finger up back at them! Seriously! *Breathe in, breathe out*

The park I passed by on the way to the post office.

Some kind of yellow apple looking fruit.

Inedible?! cherries...

The train from the park.

Colindale station.

Yellow

Blue

Red/Green (So X'masy!)

I got bored =p

Dinner and Colours

Dinner tonight:

Herbal chicken soup noodle =D

I was so excited to take a taste of it and only realized I forgot to take picture until half of it is digesting in my stomach =p Hence, one of the chicken drumstick bone in the small bowl. LOL! I know it's not a pleasing picture but...oh well =p Hope you're not eating while reading this.

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Story time...

In this new century, women are more outspoken than before. They strive harder in anyway, from career to personal achievement, even in romance. I remembered when I was still in high school, juniors in our high school really stepped up! Especially the girls. They were the ones doing the courting =S And the typical guys trying to look cool by acting like they don't care. Back then I thought, damn these girls are desperate! Now, I still thought of it that way. To be fair, I know it is a mutual thing but I wouldn't bother making the first move. If he makes the first move, I would know that he was the one who's interested in me more than I was in him.

Materialistic world. I don't know about other people but to me, having accessories, clothes and bags and shoes to match around makes me happy. I read a blog post from a successful millionaire businessman and he was saying that he spends wisely and all that and got to where he is today. He doesn't spend on materialistic things to make him happy. He said, people who needs to spend money to buy things to make themselves happy are living an unfulfilling life. Sorry, but BS?!

If you don't have a XX gene, you've never worn make-up, a dress, carry a Gucci, or strut in a pair of Jimmy Choo, and never had PMS before, do us sisters a favour...zip it! Most women feel happy shopping and buying things for themselves but it doesn't mean that they are not living a fulfilling life without all those. That is what make us bust our ass to compete with the males to climb up to higher positions. We want to earn more so we could keep buying things. It's call motivation! The kind that you never thought of. Somehow, the society is gender bias in some countries!

I think a woman should be independent. I'm not saying we should extinguish the dudes (because we need them in some way) but we should take the initiative to build our own foundation rather than hanging on to some rich (or not) guy like a parasite. One day he's gonna call you and say, "Please vacate my 5 storey mansion within an hour with all your belongings excluding what I've bought for you because I'm having a guest over". Knowing that he bought everything for you, you will be leaving with just a 20x20 hand carry that's big enough to put all your personal belongings in. Sad. Tragic.

Now, wouldn't it be better if you've got our own career, your own house (just in case you don't feel like hearing his snores), definitely your own sports car (chicks drive hot cars =p), your own build-in wardrobe with endless pieces of apparel, your own bling box with all kinds of coloured accessories enough to match each apparel, watches, shoes, bags and so on? Totally! At least if things won't work out between you two, you always have your belongings to cheer you up =) How can you ever feel depressed in this:

Colours! Love them!

Although I rarely wear some of them but looking at them makes me happy =D Okay I know the picture doesn't look that nice but those looks real nice on a body...seriously! So yea, don't wait for your guy to buy things for you...get it yourself =) New century...guys don't get things for their gfs anymore. To them spending on their games and boy toys comes first. Or they simply lack romance =p Whatever the reason is, don't wait for them to get your blings...it might never come!

Dinners and Where to draw the line?

Dinner last night:

I wanted to have something spicy =) Tom Yam soup!

With two chicken drumsticks, vege, and rice at the bottom =)

Dinner tonight:

Beef 'mun fan' again =p

I can't help but to write stories again. Bite me! =p

So yea...I was wondering, how much can you trust someone? What is actually trust? Where to draw the line? Well I'm talking about trust in relationships and not other types of trust but if you see the link with other types of trust, good for you! Lol! So yea, where to draw the line? It is so common for people to say 'All you need is to trust him/her', 'Love is about trust', etc. Sometimes you wonder, how much should I trust him?

As much as I would like to trust someone I love, it ain't easy. Definitely not my all! I do try =p but I wouldn't go there. Like I said before in the 'Doubts' post, doubts ARE necessary! Why? It's useful to protect your feelings...it's like your insurance =) When shit happens you got all your good stuff taken away from you and you feel like you're the unluckiest person in the world, you can count your insurance to bring you back up (that's if you insured enough)! Imagine the devastation if you had trust him 100% and he fooled you in the end? Unimaginable! Something I would not want to go through. Then again, I am not saying you should not trust the one you love but know where to draw the line so you won't hurt yourself...emotionally.

I think another factor to consider is the culture. Asians are typically more reserved. They are somewhat avoidant towards taking pictures that are physically in-contact with another person of the opposite sex. Where else, the Westerners do not see it as a problem. It is considered as a friendly gesture. Again, where to draw the line? Facebook is a online community where anyone can post up pictures of them and their friends. So I did a little research =) Yes, generally Westerners are more comfortable with any kind of pictures taken with their friends compared to Asians (who still somewhat have that 'keep your hands with you and I'll keep mine with me' gesture). To me, neither is wrong!

It very much depends on the principles of the individual...if you think it is a 'friendly gesture' to hold someone by the waist and get your picture taken, that is fine. If you think you are brought up in a culture that doesn't promote that kind of gesture, then don't do it! Then again, if you are ATTACHED to someone...THINK TWICE! That is where the commitment issues of a relationship comes in. Remember? Being in a relationship is about TWO INDIVIDUALS collaborating and accommodating each other to make each other happy. It means you both have your own brains! What you think is fine doesn't mean your partner will think that's fine too! You must have the courtesy to 'investigate' if your partner is comfortable with that kind of thing. Troublesome you say? Too bad, you're committed!

In a way, there is one thing you can't control. Your partner cheating on you. If he wants to cheat, he will cheat. He can come up with all kinds of lame excuses to explain where he's been and all you can do is to trust. Where to draw the line? When he start smelling like he's got a girl's perfume all over him! LOL! I'm kidding =p Well I think you really can't control it. No matter how much you trust him, I'm sure another girl will easily turn him on. Human nature! Don't ask why! So if you're fixing yourself up from a breakup; have you passed by guys and said to yourself, 'Damn, he's hawt! Why am I attached?' when you were still attached? See, your EX is not your all! If he could dump you for another, so can you =)

Your friends and him. Where to draw the line? Some people like sharing their friends with their partner but some don't. Pros and Cons. Sharing is caring you say? If you share your friends, I'm sure you'll trust your girls with him. Wait, are you sure you can? LOL! The question is, in reality are they trust-able? For me, I do trust my girls and I know (not think) they won't do such cheap stuff (yea, that's being cheap!). Here's where culture comes in again. From what I've learnt, no matter how close you are with your BFF who's kinda hot (you are always the hottest, love yourself girl! =p), you just can't trust that b*tch! Honey, don't be naive! My friend has got no idea her bf was humping other girls (who are her friends) behind her back! I have my sources =) How sad! Look at all those trust washed away...wasted! Give those trust to your financial planner =p at the end of the day, you'll end up with Gucci and Prada (and BabyPhat/KLS!) instead of empty tubs of ice-cream on your coffee table!

Note:

*I am not putting an disadvantage towards the male community when I used 'him' only and not 'him/her'. It's too long. So, it works both ways but since I'm a female, I'm writing it from a female point of view. No offence!

*BFF=Best Friend Forever

*Managing your finance is very important. Get a financial planner asap! PS: I recommend my mum =p seriously, she's the best! If you're my age and think that talking to my mum is like talking to your mum, you can talk to my brother then =D

Food that made me type...

Dinner tonight:

Cheese and ham ravioli, stir-fry vegetable and chicken fillet baked with buttered garlic mushrooms.
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Define love. Grace said. To me, I think love is something you must have courage to get into. It is no easy job. How hard is it to love someone, you ask? Very! People always talk about love problems. About how it destroys your life when you make that stpd mistake of falling in love. Can you restrain from falling in love? Well some people can, some just can't. Being in a relationship involves the whole package of how willing are you to be committed to another person, how ready are you to give-and-take, how accepting are you towards his/her bad habits, how much are you ready to let go for him/her, how much freedom will you let him/her hold...

WARNING: The following are my opinions and should not be generalized. This is based on the earlier stages of being in love...the kind of love that a 19 year old (turning 20) like me thinks how it should be. FYI, I am not ready for marriage and babies and therefore, this post is based on being in a relationship that doesn't lead to marriage =)

There is no right or wrong about falling in or out of love. When you fall in love, you fall in love and feel that you're the luckiest b*tch in the world. When you fall out of love, you fall out love and bring yourself up as quickly as you can and move on. Yes, you will feel the sudden loneliness, the coldness when you're alone, the silence of your mobile phone, the smiles that comes out just by reading his/her text, the cuddles and kisses he/she give you when you need it most...and even when you didn't need it. Definitely, time will heal all that provided that you want to be healed. It's like psychology...you can't solve your problem just by seeing the psychologist and hoping they will 'heal' you. YOU have to play a part too!

I think it is important to have control of your own feelings. How much you are actually willing to put in. Always remember that the deeper you fall in love, that will be how deep it hurts when you fall out of love. You may say that you won't know when you fall too deep in love...trust me, you'll know! You're just in denial. When you start freaking out for the smallest thing he/she did, when you start thinking about his/her present/future more than your own, when you start being suicidal for him/her (that is the stpd-est thing ever)!!! Control yourself...know what you want out of this and draw a line.

There is no such thing as 'I want to love because I want to give. I don't want anything back'. Being in a relationship is a 50/50 thing. If you are not getting your 50, pack your suitcase and be gone! If you're not giving your 50, help him/her pack their suitcase and ask him/her to leave. I don't mean it materialistically but emotionally and morally. If he's flushing out cash and you are flushing out emotionally, this is going no where. I always believe in mutual contribution...until you reach a stage where 'what's-yours-is-mine-what's-mine-is-yours'...that is falling deeper in love. Being in a relationship doesn't literally mean two-become-one...you are still having your own feminine (masculine for guys) body with your own personality, your own thoughts, your own perceptions, and pretty much everything of your own. It is how you both collaborate what you have as an individual to make each other happy.

Being in a relationship doesn't mean you can put him/her before your friends. I have experienced uncountable instances where friends just drop you for their other half. To a certain extent, it is alright to choose him/her over your friends at certain occasions (like meeting up because you haven't met up for some time) but NEVER NEVER delete your friends! Some people rarely contact with their friends and only find them when they need comfort after an argument. So not cool! Those people deserve this two words: F*ck off! =) At the end of the day...your friends are the only people you can count on to help heal you when sh*t happens.

Relationship...relation...on a ship...okay am playing =p Another thing which people should know. Being in a relationship is all about TWO people (unless you're in some love triangle or orgyship =s) and no one else should have say in the direction the ship goes. Take their advises and digest it using your own cognition, not take and apply. If you're old enough to love, you're old enough to have a mind of your own. I've got a friend who's got a gf from another race and they've gone out for almost 6 years...they were planning to get married! Sadly, the girl's parents didn't allow him to marry her because he was from another race. Okay that is seriously BS! Common you guys! What century is this?! What does the colour of the person's skin got to do with the love you're feeling anyway? There is no correlation between skin colour and behaviour/attitude. No proven research. This would be a silly research topic anyway (Psyc students, don't use this as your dissertation topic =p). When you fall in love, fall in love with the personality and characteristics of the person...the colour and the stereotypes of the person's ethnicity don't matter!

Here's the ugly part. Breakups. I don't know about other people but to me, it is a big thing...something I wouldn't mess around with. Think before you act and make sure there will be no regrets (can you deal with the sudden loneliness etc?). When I call it quits, that is when it hits my limit. Everyone should have that limit and should obey by that limit. Being in a relationship is supposed to elevate your happiness level and not your emo level! If you are spending too much on tissues, drinking too much water to rehydrate your body from the tears, and changing wet pillowcases all the time, call it quits! There is room for A chance(no 's' behind). Everyone makes mistake and should deserve A chance to fix things up. Two is the MAX! Never will there be THREE chances to take that disappointing fella back! How can you feel the love after three 'potong-stim' occasions? Sorry but I only have that much stim and after it is gone, it ain't coming back! I will look for a new pot of water to boil to get a whole new stim =p Think twice, thrice, all you need to but make sure you stand by what you have finally decided.

It is human nature to like experiencing positive feelings...someone supporting you and giving you unconditional love. Interestingly, it doesn't mean that everyone wants to be loved (leave those people alone!), some people prefer having their own space. Individual differences =) so there is really no right or wrong whether to fall in love or not...it's just whether has the right person come by and whether you are committed to invest the necessary things to make it work.

Indeed a long post. Take and digest, do not take and apply until it goes through your own head for approval. I wasn't talking about anyone else in this post so don't feel offended in any way. Love y'all!

Spice up my life, pls?!

Dinner tonight:

Similar to last night =p but with pitta.

WARNING: EXTREMELY HOT & SPICY!

Which part is 'Extremely hot & spicy'?!

I finally got my pan!

Communication. What is it? 16hours of ignorance? Maybe.